Late again… I’m thinking I should just move this blogdom thing over to Thursdays all together. :-/ No no… I just need to strengthen my resolve, or some such.

Anyway, this week is reflecting on six things I wish I’d never done. I think I’ve already pretty much covered that in other posts, haven’t I? Oh maybe not. Damn it. I can never find a way out of these other than to stop doing them, and I won’t do that. Pffft.

6) I wish I’d not have been so nasty and bitter during the divorce, allowing my mother’s crazy to start little fires that were totally unnecessary. If I’d made a better attempt at being civil, perhaps things wouldn’t have dragged on so long.

5) In hindsight, I shouldn’t have let myself get talked into taking that college course. In some ways it was very good for me to get out and do it, but in other ways it set me back three years in personal growth, and it did absolutely nothing else for me. It certainly set my kids back – if I’d not been so focused on getting through it, perhaps I’d have seen the signs of what was happening with them.

4) I shouldn’t have let that woman get to me the way she did, I shouldn’t have let her wear me down to the point of being on the edge of a nervous breakdown. I suppose that technically ties into number 5, but I could have done things differently internally as well.

3) I shouldn’t have taken that other course of study, I was doing fine on my own and with Glas Celli, wonderfully in fact. I allowed myself to be beaten down emotionally and spiritually, not knowing exactly what was going on behind the scenes with the people in charge. I should have applied Bonewits’ questionnaire earlier.

2) I should have made better choices in friends all my life. I do seriously wish I hadn’t maintained a lot of them early on, and I certainly do miss the other friends I lost because of those bad choices.

1) I’ve always said I don’t have any real solid regrets. If I’m to be honest, I do have a few small ones, more like wishes and sighs actually. The thing I think of the most, the biggest thing I wish I’d never done – I wish I’d never told someone it was okay. It wasn’t, not really, not deep down. It really wasn’t. And I don’t think either of us have been truly happy since.

And that brings it to a close for another week. *whew*

By the way, my erotic para-romance, Eternity: Fire & Ice, is still up for sale at Smashwords, and if I make ten sales this week I’ll release the second part early – and free! Click the title to go on over…. *nudgenudge*